Sunday, June 29, 2008

The afterwards

Wow it's been several weeks now since I've let go of my gaming experience and found that I have been very busy and due to that I have spent very little time on the computer, thus I have not been blogging much. I found that while I was gaming it was something that got me writing again. I think there's something about the gaming that I just "get". The problem though is, I would tend to let other real world stuff get behind or out of hand... my room got quite messy for example. I have found that over the last few weeks I've spent my time getting reorganized again and getting some of my other projects going. I'm finding that I'll have to find a new inspiration to blog though, but I'm sure I can come up with something :)

Friday, June 13, 2008

The end

Okay I'm opening this with a side note. I had written this entry at this point several weeks ago, but have found that I have been so busy catching up with other things that I haven't spent much time on the computer. Anyway it was still something I wanted to get published... so with no further Adiue.... My post.


Well last week I ended my Fiesta experience. I had been having an internal struggle with this for quite some time now, at least a few weeks. I found that while there were many things that I enjoyed about the game, it was too much of a distraction in my real life. I did my best to budget out my time and to only play during certain hours, but I found that I would play late into the night at times which would affect the next day for me. Plus I found that in the back of my mind there was always Fiesta going on. I also noticed that while I would still go out and do stuff, I just didn't as much. I found that while I think it would serve me to think about my ebay business and some of the other pressing things in my life, I was thinking about Fiesta, such as, "How can I make more money in Fiesta?" and "how can I better my Fiesta skills?" I also found that even though I wasn't playing much in the day I stayed home more. The moment I made the decision to let go of the gaming I found that I started to think about other things I could do, such as going to the mountains with Jasmine, focusing much more on working with Jasmine in general. I began to ponder my plans to cook and expand my cooking horizons. I have a set of bongo drums that I purchased not to long ago. I simply began to start thinking in terms of other things I could be and wanted to be doing. What I find really interesting is the more I played, the more I had a "satisfied" feeling, so for example, I am part time right now and should really be looking at what it is I want to be doing with my time or how to generate additional income in my part time. But I began to lose interest in those things.
So these are some of the things that were not working for me about the gaming. But it was still a tough decision for me to make and that's due to a lot of positive things that I feel I got out of the gaming, in fact as I was pondering my Fiesta experience I have a lot of memories come up.
This was one of those experiences where I had the "newness" feeling. Where I'm starting up something for the first time and there's the learning period. I find that while this stage can be quite uncomfortable, it is often quite memorable. I find I get this in new jobs a lot too. It's fun to look back to see how different things were in the beginning compared to the end once all the learning was done. Perhaps there's something to the process of learning somethings new as well that's energizing and inspiring. These are the times where I felt like there was always something new to learn and it was fun to learn all the in's and out's of the game. I didn't really talk to anyone very much in the beginning, I did so much on my own, by myself, but by the end I found that I enjoyed working much more in a team and that I had a place where I could serve the other players well. At the very end as I was distributing all the stuff I had acquired during the game I took about 110 silver... actually more, and began to distribute gifts of 10 silver each to the new players getting started. With one of the other games that I've been playing having a higher level character give me a hand has made the experience so much better (granted I see myself continuing the other game either.) In fact, it was so much fun I wondered why I had not done something like that throughout my Fiesta experience. It took a bit of work to as I found a lot of the new people starting out were very suspicious of a higher level character giving gifts, but once they discovered I was someone that meant only good they began to talk more and ask questions. It was fun.
*****On a side note to me, this last line is something to consider in what ever it is I'd like to be doing with my life. I enjoy working with others giving them a hand getting started in different projects.*****
As I write these things it occurs to me that I may have opportunities to do this in my real life all around me. I know that the zoo has volunteer opportunities all the time and that's something I thought would be fun to do, while not perhaps as a career, the opportunity to of course, a. work at the zoo, and b. getting to serve others sounds rewarding. There may be other things as well... somewhere out there, oh such as the school systems, and even in community education. I'll have to explore this a bit further.

I really enjoyed the people that I played with as well. I found a guild... a very cool guild, one that I really enjoyed being a part of and enjoyed the people that I played with (that would be the Pepsi Guild...granted I tend to drink Coke when I drink that kind of stuff). It was nice to find place where I felt a part of... to feel wanted. It's got me thinking about other things I can do in my life to be part of a larger group. I found there really is strength and opportunity to be found in a group. I find that so much of my life I attempt to do things on my own... all by myself, which honestly can be very challenging and makes things tougher than they perhaps ought to be, plus it can be hard to stay motivated I find that one of the reasons I at time do things by myself is that I can work at my own pace and don't have to count on anyone else. I'm finding though that I really would like to work at a pace faster than I'm currently working at and in a group where I have things that are my responsibility as long as they are things I feel I can do I really enjoy doing my part. So I suppose the big thing is to find groups that I would like to be a part of. I ran into and old friend that told me about an investment group that her and her husband does on Tuesday evenings. I think that'll I'll send her and email to see what she says. I found that I was much more apt to keep my investments up when I had a group that I was part of

Sunday, May 18, 2008

Two MMORPG's at the same time

Wow... got lost in the world of MMORPG's (Massive multiplayer online role playing games) this week. Didn't feel particularly good about that but there were some good things to be learned.

I came across another game called RF online. (at one point I was playing this one and Fiesta on my computer at THE SAME TIME, was pretty cool and worked and the computer seemed to do okay, but the individual programs didn't seem to like it very much) It's set in the future with robots, big guns, technology and all kinds of stuff like that... which I found REALLY appealing to my science fiction side ( has a real robotech feel to it in some ways). I ended up spending WAY too much time on it, neglecting some of the more important things in my life. In the end I canceled my subscription, which was free and uninstalled the game from my computer. I find though that a few days later... I had a BIG urge to play again, but I find that there are way too many other things going on right now for me to be playing any more. So one may ask... "What does this have to do with Fiesta?"

I found that this other game was like sooooo much more in-depth than Fiesta and when I went back to Fiesta, I just was not as interested in playing. I have made online gamer friends though and find that I like to see them so that's one thing that keeps me playing. Plus I do admit, I'm still very impressed with the economy of Fiesta. I feel it was one of the things that got me up and going with finally getting my Ebay sales started. So there are definitely some things that hold my interest in keeping up my Fiesta account. Yet even with all that in mind, I'm finding my interest to waned a bit so I'm once again focusing on some of the other things in my life which is a good. I'm not sure how much time I'll be spending on Fiesta anymore... we'll see I suppose... wait didn't I say that in my last blog... I suppose we're still in the "seeing" stage. :)

On a side note, one of these days, I am going to get some screen shots of the excel sheet that I finally got together, although it won't be this evening.

Tuesday, May 13, 2008

Brief thoughts

Ahhh it grows late. I haven't written for a while but was determined to get at least something done on my blog. Recently I have found my interest in Fiesta waining. I just have so many other things to do that it's tough to get it all in plus have any gaming time. Not to mention that if I have my vendor stuff open during the day I find that it distracts me from the other things I'm doing. So it's tough to say how much longer I will be actively playing.

In my gaming I have noticed some other stuff that has come up for me. Specifically concerning my leadership. I found that I have been less motivated to be the party leader. Part of the reason is that I joined a guild in the game,"Pepsi" (yay), and now am working with players that are more advanced than I, that has created a space where I'm not sure where I fit in, as the places that they take me I'm the newest player and have stuff to learn from them. Actually that puts me in the space of a learner and I am open to that role. What I am also noticing though is I feel less confident and getting to my bottom line, get the feeling that I don't want to fail or let anyone down and so I don't risk inviting to the party. I get the feeling the resolution for me is, Be the party leader anyway. The worse that can happen is I fail. I'll have other opportunities and the failed attempt can provide some valuable insight and learning. If I am willing to learn from my mistakes, I'll do better the next times. Taking that into life, I get the feeling I'm doing the same thing, where I'm not really taking life by the horns and stepping up to be the leader. I like my guild, but I think what I've also created for myself is I tend to hang out and chat with guild members only (and they are totally cool :) ) instead of going out and making new friends too. One thing that I can do is make sure I'm reaching out to others that I don't know as well.

Anyway just a brief note for this evening, I've had a lot of thoughts lately but the rest belong with the other blog.

Monday, April 28, 2008

Homework...Fiesta or otherwise

Right on evening time again! The family has gone to bed and I'm alone with my thoughts... Scary :). Actually it is very good as I have had at least a few of them lately. Some of them have even been about Fiesta. One in particular that comes up is that I don't know how long I'll be playing Fiesta. As I am getting into better habits, I find that I'm feeling better and better about life which is causing me to do other things with my time, which leaves less time for gaming. We'll see, I've noticed many things happening in my life lately. I feel like I'm observing my life right now, listening to what my feelings are saying as well as the experiences that are coming up for me.
Another thought I had was concerning homework. How does that fit into Fiesta one may ask, but it does! Consider the excel document that I have been working on. I was just at the part where I thought I was done and actually using the sheet to collect data when I noticed ONE CELL WAS NOT WORKING! Course then consider that I'm dealing with SHEETS of like 30 units to a sheet and the one cell in ALL of them is wrong! It's actually a fairly easy fix, but it'll take work and I find that I have to take time away from the game to do this. Which is very good. The writing of the blog is work... taking away from game time that I could be spending playing, but it's good that I'm writing, as I find that it inspires me. I suppose what I'm getting at is taking a break to to the work before the play can be a VERY valuable habit. I find that the homework option I have struggled with for most of my life. Play has been so important to me and at times it's not easy for me to see the value of the work right off the bat, but every time I have a finished produce I am reminded of the value a little work can bring, One would think I would be inspired to work more when I do this , but I find I have more time to play so up until lately I have played more, in whatever it is I'm working on or playing. Right now though I'm creating new habits, which in turn is doing good things for me in my life. I find that I'm doing more. I suppose tying this paragraph together, I still want to be able to have and do fun things, but I also want to be spending time doing my "homework" as the work I do at home can be some of the most valuable work that I'll do. Ooooh speaking of homework, I wanted to fit this into my blog somewhere and here is the place! MIT offers over 80%(I've heard) of it's courses online for FREE! Granted one does not get the paper degree... but for those of us looking for useful knowledge and to gather skills, what an awesome opportunity, yet it requires one doing their homework. For those interested in these MIT courses click here.
There have been good things happening to me lately, as I ponder these things I find myself asking "what's causing it?" The thought crosses my mine "oh! perhaps it's the Fiesta game." I find it's more than that though. I find that the Fiesta game is a bit of a distraction and could even be a detractor of the things I'm looking to create in my life if I'm not careful. I think what's making the difference in my life right now, are the habits I'm getting into. I am a spiritual person, yet for a while now I have not been praying, I mean I have most of the time but they have been sleepy right before bed prayers lacking in substance. I found that I wanted this to be different so I decided I would say my prayers BEFORE gaming and before I was anticipating sleep, and now I'm finding that I'm begin to really pray again. It feels good.
I've started to write. This blog has been enjoyable and given me a place to write some of my feelings about what's going on in my life. Granted I look at what I've written so far and think, "wait this is a blog about Fiesta!", and while that is true.... it's about my Fiesta Experience. The bigger thing going on though is that I'm writing again and I've always noticed that life seems to get really good when I'm writing :)

Okay so enough about these things, what's new in Fiestaville? The group I tend to hang with online likes to have dance parties and I find it's quite a bit of fun. Granted the characters only have a few dances they can do. I find that we make it more exciting by using other movements that are available to the characters to create some level of variance. I took a few pictures and just had to get them posted of my character dancing with the "PEPSI" girls :). It was lot's of fun and makes me laugh!

Thursday, April 24, 2008

Buying and selling irritations

Today I wanted to discuss an irritation concerning my Fiesta experience, specifically when I have stuff to sell and I set up shop in Fiesta... and then nothing sells, I find that it irritates me and puts me in a somewhat irritable mood. I set up shop earlier today and just left the computer alone pretty much all day. Yet I sold very little. I have actually experienced this in real life when I trading stocks. I found that when my stock was doing poorly I was irritated. This is not something that I alone feel, as from some of the writings I've read about concerning the topic of investing the market can affect people's moods if we let it. I suppose the big thing I'm getting is that something I'm doing isn't working and the Fiesta economy is changing. I have put a lot of focus in selling one thing, Elrue, and I'm noticing that everyone else seems to now be selling Elrue and other such stones as well and are willing to make less of a profit than I, or they play more and gather more resources than I and produce their own. I find I'm more focused on the retail end of things where I look for people selling the product at a price comparable to what it would cost me to make it myself and then sell at a higher price later.
I think it's time to look at some other avenues
This, I find, is not an issue that is limited to just my Fiesta experience. I find when I get into one comfort zone where I know how things work, I don't branch out very much. This very concept is discussed in the short story "Who moved my Cheese?" This discusses two mice who are in search for cheese, they find a big stash and one of them gets comfy and the other enjoys the cheese but is out looking around the area keeping and eye out for more cheese. In a nutshell one day the Cheese is gone and the mouse who had been exploring finds other cheeses and the one that got comfy just sits and stews wondering why his cheese disappeared and when it was coming back. I thought it was a really great read and it's short so I encourage anyone to pick it up and take a look. Again though, the concept I'm working with is that there are other things that I can do to make money in the game and I really ought to be focusing on those things. I suppose one of the reasons I like the Elrue & stones sales is that it tend to be bigger money when all is sold and sometimes it sells quickly, but a lot of the time, especially due to the amount of competition, it seems to be going a lot slower. I'm actually thinking just raw materials would be the better thing to start selling. At least during the day. The bigger sales I'll leave for the night time where I can just set up shop and not worry about it till morning.

I'm feeling that having successes in my sales in this game is important because when people buy and I'm successful it encourages me to sell more and I find it quite exciting. Not only that but as my confidence builds I find I'm much more open to doing stuff in real life like Ebay sales. I've got something I'm planning on selling on Ebay soon and I feel if I can just get the first couple of sales under my belt I'll be in good shape because the initial fear will be over. We'll see :)

Concerning my Excel tool I'm pretty happy with it. Turns out there are still a few bugs to work out and some minor things that I'm adjusting before it works just the way I want it to. I had a chance to use it last night but I'm finding as a calculator it didn't work very well as I'm still getting used to it. I find that my original intent for the the tool is a reference point, which may take a little bit of work getting all the info in.

Wednesday, April 23, 2008

Post #3 (I'm on a role)

Wow! Today was what I feel like a day was supposed to be like. I didn't get on Fiesta at all today due to I didn't really have anything prepared to sell and I also had a lot of other things that were occurring today that took all of my attention. I did however finish my excel spreadsheet that I was working on for the sales of my Fiesta items. I am really quite excited about that! Aside from that it does some really cool calculations, it represents me finishing a project. I mentioned in my earlier blog that I was a bit intimidated by excel, but now that I have finished this project, I feel like I have had the experience that my project was not nearly as taxing as I thought it could have been :) and every time I have one of these experiences, I find that it makes starting and completing other projects much easier to get started and finished. This has also got me thinking about my Ebay project. Tonight I found some awesome clearance items at Office Depot (lasers! can you believe it!). I'm keeping one for myself and then selling the other three. With any luck they cover a good portion of my Office Depot clearance shopping. I'm feeling like I'm much more able to handle working an Ebay business and it's time to get started. This excel file though... as I looked a bit more closely at it... turns out can also be used for my Ebay sales in calculating cost of product to purchase or produce and what it's currently selling for to get profit margins. In my next few posts I intend to get some screen shots of the spreadsheet and post here with instructions on how to use. I may also put in a link here to a place where people can download the file or perhaps to my email and I'll send it to them.
Haven't really looked into it much at this point sooooo don't know what available. For now send me a message and when it's done I can send a copy to you.

In other Fiesta news, last night had like a two hour dance party online, which is really quite amazing as the Fiesta characters only have like 5 dances. So we ended up getting down to our basic Noobe (new person) clothes and regular armor boots. Which means we all had really big boots on. It was quite enjoyable and I really enjoyed chatting with all the other people that were on. I've decided that for a little while I'm going to wander around towns in my Noobe lounge clothes. It makes me laugh that it's so much fun for me.

Hmmm I may want to make a note somewhere to take pictures of these events when they occur or other cool events as then I can post them on this blog. I can do that you know :).

In any case the highlight of today for me was the putting together of the Excel file. I may have other ideas for the future but for now it's in a form that I would be happy to share with others.