Wow... got lost in the world of MMORPG's (Massive multiplayer online role playing games) this week. Didn't feel particularly good about that but there were some good things to be learned.
I came across another game called RF online. (at one point I was playing this one and Fiesta on my computer at THE SAME TIME, was pretty cool and worked and the computer seemed to do okay, but the individual programs didn't seem to like it very much) It's set in the future with robots, big guns, technology and all kinds of stuff like that... which I found REALLY appealing to my science fiction side ( has a real robotech feel to it in some ways). I ended up spending WAY too much time on it, neglecting some of the more important things in my life. In the end I canceled my subscription, which was free and uninstalled the game from my computer. I find though that a few days later... I had a BIG urge to play again, but I find that there are way too many other things going on right now for me to be playing any more. So one may ask... "What does this have to do with Fiesta?"
I found that this other game was like sooooo much more in-depth than Fiesta and when I went back to Fiesta, I just was not as interested in playing. I have made online gamer friends though and find that I like to see them so that's one thing that keeps me playing. Plus I do admit, I'm still very impressed with the economy of Fiesta. I feel it was one of the things that got me up and going with finally getting my Ebay sales started. So there are definitely some things that hold my interest in keeping up my Fiesta account. Yet even with all that in mind, I'm finding my interest to waned a bit so I'm once again focusing on some of the other things in my life which is a good. I'm not sure how much time I'll be spending on Fiesta anymore... we'll see I suppose... wait didn't I say that in my last blog... I suppose we're still in the "seeing" stage. :)
On a side note, one of these days, I am going to get some screen shots of the excel sheet that I finally got together, although it won't be this evening.
Sunday, May 18, 2008
Tuesday, May 13, 2008
Brief thoughts
Ahhh it grows late. I haven't written for a while but was determined to get at least something done on my blog. Recently I have found my interest in Fiesta waining. I just have so many other things to do that it's tough to get it all in plus have any gaming time. Not to mention that if I have my vendor stuff open during the day I find that it distracts me from the other things I'm doing. So it's tough to say how much longer I will be actively playing.
In my gaming I have noticed some other stuff that has come up for me. Specifically concerning my leadership. I found that I have been less motivated to be the party leader. Part of the reason is that I joined a guild in the game,"Pepsi" (yay), and now am working with players that are more advanced than I, that has created a space where I'm not sure where I fit in, as the places that they take me I'm the newest player and have stuff to learn from them. Actually that puts me in the space of a learner and I am open to that role. What I am also noticing though is I feel less confident and getting to my bottom line, get the feeling that I don't want to fail or let anyone down and so I don't risk inviting to the party. I get the feeling the resolution for me is, Be the party leader anyway. The worse that can happen is I fail. I'll have other opportunities and the failed attempt can provide some valuable insight and learning. If I am willing to learn from my mistakes, I'll do better the next times. Taking that into life, I get the feeling I'm doing the same thing, where I'm not really taking life by the horns and stepping up to be the leader. I like my guild, but I think what I've also created for myself is I tend to hang out and chat with guild members only (and they are totally cool :) ) instead of going out and making new friends too. One thing that I can do is make sure I'm reaching out to others that I don't know as well.
Anyway just a brief note for this evening, I've had a lot of thoughts lately but the rest belong with the other blog.
In my gaming I have noticed some other stuff that has come up for me. Specifically concerning my leadership. I found that I have been less motivated to be the party leader. Part of the reason is that I joined a guild in the game,"Pepsi" (yay), and now am working with players that are more advanced than I, that has created a space where I'm not sure where I fit in, as the places that they take me I'm the newest player and have stuff to learn from them. Actually that puts me in the space of a learner and I am open to that role. What I am also noticing though is I feel less confident and getting to my bottom line, get the feeling that I don't want to fail or let anyone down and so I don't risk inviting to the party. I get the feeling the resolution for me is, Be the party leader anyway. The worse that can happen is I fail. I'll have other opportunities and the failed attempt can provide some valuable insight and learning. If I am willing to learn from my mistakes, I'll do better the next times. Taking that into life, I get the feeling I'm doing the same thing, where I'm not really taking life by the horns and stepping up to be the leader. I like my guild, but I think what I've also created for myself is I tend to hang out and chat with guild members only (and they are totally cool :) ) instead of going out and making new friends too. One thing that I can do is make sure I'm reaching out to others that I don't know as well.
Anyway just a brief note for this evening, I've had a lot of thoughts lately but the rest belong with the other blog.
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